Temple of the Dark Moon

its five in the morning… and i only have another one half day to complete my final year design project report. 4 more chapters to go and i’m dead tired.

the thing about typing reports is that you think its easy and its fast but it really never is. it took me 2 days to type 2 chapters. i was shocked at how slow my pace is. i tried to hasten my typing speed but to no avail. its really not about the typing speed but the state of mind. after typing 4 paragraphs, the brain basically turns to mesh.

taking a half hour break does not help. the brain is still soggy. which is the problem really. only a few paragraph of typing and the brain needs 2 hour break.

i have been typing with only half hour breaks and occasionally 2 hour breaks for 3 days now. i can feel frustration welling inside me. i’m getting irritable easier than normal. worse, is the feeling of absolute hopelessness and u just wanna sit back and not do a thing.

as much as i wish it, i know even if i do that… the only person that is going suffer is still me. i either pound my soggy brain to continue typing or stay here another semester or better yet, get crappy grades.

when u want things done right, you have to do it yourself. its either u are incapable of commanding others or they are unable to execute ur orders. either way, its your fault. what a pain in the ass. thats why i like to follow; at least i don have to have so much finger pointing conscience crisis to deal with. just do what you are told, if u screw up, u get screwed… sweet and simple.

everyone is looking for a leader but u need great followers to make great leaders~ i’m willing to be one of them~ =D. i think its time i get some shut eye… my finger nails are making a hell of a racket typing and my rummate is trying to sleep~

-Enimsil Liwruoy-